where could i start, u know for so long i've considered pain-filled activities to be a misery something i wouldn't like to experience bu now i realize that with every single one of them occurring i find myself in a position of real enlightenment don't something pushes me to feel like i need to write to spread the words, for example due to recent events and by recent i mean actions taking place only a few months ago to be precise 3 months ago a certain relation that i considered as a life completer (my life) has started to experience some troubles i hated every second of it altering i tried to keep it stable but it turns the love triangle became more and more rectangular that means with on side shorter than the other, and sadly i was on the furthest edge and he was on the shortest, with her in the middle, the thing is that i wanted it to be more isosceles then rectangular but hey you cant get what u want, and after i tried to correct things up i fell into a deeper whole a pit with no rope long enough to pull me out of it, so i tried to mend what was lost i admitted something to the girl that i never admitted but to one before but still that side continued to grow longer, i don't know something altered her mind maybe he did, anyways everything was fine till a day ago where someone challenged and sad enough disrespected me, now that someone isn't her and even if she was i think that i made it clear thousands of times before that she could do whatever she wants but she never understood it, that someone was the one on the third edge, that cowardly hidden someone, first he starts to lie, she believes him,okay so what maybe she've moved on i accepted the fact of him calling me a liar and pointing fingers at me for the proud reason that i wanted her to be happy, but then the alpha and omega took place, i was attacked in my domain, he acted as if he was the only mucho around but little less that he knew that once ur in the arms of an octopus u cant escape, so what i did is told the girl about what happened but yet again she refused the fact that beneath his white coat existed a red skin and still considered him as angel. i got so freaked out by the fact that she never spoke to me again tried a million times to contact her but she didnt reply its her choice i loved her so i accepted her decision and stepped away, there was nothing left to say then i got this wavy thought and i remembered something from my past where i once closed an old woody door and got so annoyed by them splinters that traveled deep down into my skin and hurt me like hell till i finally removed them but this time the splinters i got from her closing the doors went right threw my broken heart i felt like the devil was pulling me burning me roasting my organ organ of life on a fire that will soon die out anyways if she chose that that door gets closed i respect this all i want is for her to be happy so be it and i'll even help closing it so that she doesn't get the splinters that i got gonna miss u sorella(first time the mentioned person is included only by my nickname to her )